hey
i’m shroom daddy
and let’s face it
this is the tripping channel
we’re not gonna be able to deny it
too much longer
i bet it is the tripping channel what
how am i you know
what am i gonna do about that it is what
it is and it is the tripping channel
okay and i
in case i haven’t mentioned it yet
i am shroom daddy
now um
if you have seen other videos of mine
besides this one
i am often
zany
and enjoying myself and enjoying life
and loving life and enjoying the moment
and enjoying everything enjoy enjoy
enjoy love love love love life love life
love life
but what happens though in between trips
is
i only trip
once a month well sometimes every three
three or four weeks
now
and um i don’t microdose by choice i do
think that everyone should microdose
i mean everybody should microdose
mushrooms
the world would be a really much better
place
if it did the more people who do the
more
the better the world is going to be
that’s a promise
but in the meantime
i don’t microdose i like to do
i like to trip all weekend long
and so
i need to make sure that my body is
exhausted of
any previous benefit from the mushrooms
so
the benefits last beyond the weekend
it depends on what’s going on in my life
and how i’m doing
sometimes they last as long as three
weeks
if things are going well in my life
if things are not going well it can just
be a few days
but i have chosen to uh
to do it this way
and that means that until my mushroom
weekend comes
the effects will have worn off
and i am going to have to
trudge through
life
as it presents itself to me and that is
usually with a huge dose of depression
and
an enormous
enormous
desire
to kill myself or to just die i don’t
have to kill myself i just want to die
somehow i just want to be dead i want to
no longer exist i want death sweet
death i want it so
badly
in between when the
when
when the benefits have finally worn off
and before i’ve had my next trip there’s
always
you know
i
just
want to die so
badly
but so you know
there are a lot of reasons
to want to kill yourself
so sometimes what helps
is to think about
what’s here and
reasons not to kill yourself
and so i came up with a few that i
thought i would share with you these are
things that
run through my mind sometimes
back in the old days when i
really wanted to when i was a teenager
and
was
seriously flirting with death and
harming my body
one of the things that
one of the reasons just to stick around
is just out of mere curiosity you say
okay
if i
end it all here i will
solve my problems and i’ll
find out if there’s an afterlife or not
but
there’s always this curiosity
of like okay
now
what if i
what if i stick around let’s just see
what happens you never know
that’s one reason
now a very good reason is that
no matter
how miserable
you
are
and no matter how
miserable
your life
is
it will make so many people sad
if you kill yourself
the sadness of the people you will leave
behind
will be profound
someone will have a guilt trip that it’s
their fault
that they could have saved you
that if they just had
looked for the signs
they would have been able to help
so
by taking your own life
you’re leaving you’re you’re handing
over your grief
to other people
you’re you’re exiting the world but your
grief is staying behind and
everyone else has to live with it now
it’s a little bit selfish i guess
when you think about it that way
i also want to say i
i completely respect
your decision
whichever decision
you make if you’re at that point
so i i i get
i really get
wanting to end it
believe me i get it
but you’ll make so many people sad
if you do
another thing is the
the trauma of the person who finds you
dead
that’s going to
affect them
for the rest of their lives it’s going
to
it’s going to cause a
deep
scar in their life
that they’re
most likely will never get over maybe if
they do a lot of therapy they’ll be able
to
so you
by killing yourself are inflicting that
trauma on someone else
and you might not even know who it’s
going to be
so
there are wonders of the world that
you’ll be leaving behind
i there is a lot there’s too much about
the world i don’t like i
i
i hate the world
sometimes
but there are also amazing things about
the world
and
it’s
this it seems to be our responsibility
to figure out
how to
reconcile the two things life is
hard
life is
so [ __ ] hard
for everybody
for most people and probably is hard for
people that you think it’s not hard for
i think it’s hard for everybody we all
go through all the same emotions and
it’s a struggle
and some of us are able to
transcend the struggle
and
and learn to dance with life and it can
be done and it’s where we all want to
it’s where we should all want to go i
think
and
it can be achieved for me it can be
achieved without being on mushrooms i’ve
done
workshops where
i’ve gotten to the same
space the same results
but mushrooms are a shortcut they just
take you right there
anyway so the amazing things about the
world
it’s amazing to me that our bodies
function
independently
that food and the sun
are the things that give us life
i don’t usually think of how each piece
of food i eat
contributes to how you feel
but once i had a really
really
really bad case of food poisoning
to the point that i was barely
eating anything i was just laying in bed
merely existing
and not really doing much more than that
i had
zero energy
and
zero appetite
it was the worst i’ve had food poisoning
before but this was the worst it ever
was for me it usually would last only
two or three days and this was
at least six or seven days
but eventually the poison passes through
your system and you begin to eat again
and that
is when you see
how much
each
little bite of food
affects you
you may only have the energy and will
to eat
one
little
tiny piece of a banana for instance just
one bite
but then
you see
how that one bite
affects you and sustains you
you have you’ve eaten
like nothing for a few days
and then
you finally have the energy for a bite
of banana
and you can feel
how it affects
your body how it wakes it up
when you’re at that point that you can
tell a difference in how you feel from
just a single bite of food then you
realize that all of the food you’re
eating
when you’re eating regularly is
sustaining you
in ways
that you don’t
usually think about
then
as you eat more and more and come back
to life
you see that
direct connection between
what you put into your body and how you
feel
so the relationship between our bodies
and the food we eat is amazing to me
and the reliability
of food as pleasure
when you’re really depressed sometimes
food is the only pleasure you have
so get something that you really like
and eat it as slowly
as possible
to stretch the pleasure out
for as long as you can
it’s amazing to me that the sun
and the planets are
seemingly floating in space
that the reason we have night and day is
because
the earth is turning
and in daylight
we’re on the earth
while it’s
facing the sun
and at night
the part of the earth we’re on
is facing away from the sun
and that the shift
happens
because of the rotation of the earth
and that the shadows we cast
are long or short depending on the angle
that the earth is
to the sun
these might be things you already knew
and maybe took it for granted a long
time ago
but i
personally
tend to be amazed
at things
we already know about
it’s amazing to me that
humans have the
ingenuity to figure things out
we figured out how to make
cars run
we figured out
electricity
and how to make lights we figured out
computers
the potential for those things
always existed
but the building blocks
of what we know and learn
led to those things
so from the time
the earth began the potential was
already there
it was there all along
but
we
discovered it
human ingenuity is amazing to me
it’s amazing to me that we can speak to
each other on phones
that i can be in one part of the world
and you can be
in another part of the world
and we can talk to each other
at the same
time that
that blows my mind
which makes it amusing to suggest to
someone that
two minds on opposite sides of the world
could be connected and have that person
pooh-pooh that idea and say that it’s
impossible and then you just have to
remind them yeah
but phones
and in the old days
when people were all connected with
wires
they would say
but the wires are connecting them
and you say but it’s still standing on
opposite sides of the world and being
connected
and if they still would have said yeah
but wires don’t count well now it’s all
wireless
and even before the internet even when
phones were connected we still had
television
it was amazing to me that sound and
vision
fly through the air
connecting
from one device to another
so why then is it still so hard to
believe that our minds are connected
when we’ve already proven that things
are connected in invisible ways that our
eyes can’t see
it’s amazing
to me that identical twins
came from the same
fertilized egg that split in two
so that they were originally
the same person
and yet
they are now two entirely
separate
individuals
it’s amazing that
any kind of seed
whether the seed of a human or a plant
holds
within it
everything
that person
or plan
will physically become
that our
ears our eyes
our skin
our bones
every part of our body that you can
think of
starts out as something
all bunched up
it does something so small
that you can’t even see it
and that in order for it to unfold and
grow
it takes things that are already in the
world in order for that to happen food
water
and nurturing
so i do not blame you if you want to
kill yourself
i understand the pain inside i
understand
the feelings of hopelessness
and despair
because i feel it on a regular basis
but it’s also amazing that whatever the
problems are in the world
the solutions
are here also
for me
mushrooms
are the solution to the pain and despair
and hopelessness
it’s amazing to me that something that
grows out of the ground
has the direct ingredients needed
to turn those
feelings of hopelessness and despair
around and i must be honest with you
sometimes that despair is relieved for
the entire time between mushroom trips
and sometimes
the despair returns
almost as soon as the day after my
mushroom trip has ended it depends on a
lot of different things
some of which i can figure out logically
and some of which i don’t have
any idea
whatsoever
but for me
just knowing
that i’ll be able to
relieve that suffering and despair even
just
momentarily
even if it’s only for a day
that keeps me going
through all the misery of existence
on mushrooms i rise above that misery
and i can see
that the world is ultimately
a good place
i can
and will
return to despair
at some point
after that
mushroom trip and before my next one
it’s
it’s the way i function
and knowing that i’ve risen above it
often doesn’t help matters when i’m
wallowing in the despair and
hopelessness the fact that i rose above
it in the past doesn’t help me very much
in the moment that i’ve fallen back into
the misery the misery is too
overwhelming for it to matter
cares that i once felt good and inspired
when right now i’m in what feels like
never any misery
but knowing
that i’ll get there again helps it’s not
just thinking
i will or hoping i will mushrooms
work for me
so
it’s not just a thought or hope it’s a
certainty
it is absolute knowledge
it’s a fact
and that’s why i do the tripping channel
i know hopelessness and despair very
intimately
and even now i still experience it
mushrooms will not be the answer for
every single person
there are people for whom it will do
nothing i’ve met them
but they work for me
and they work for a lot of other people
so if you are suffering from depression
or another mental illness
they very well
may help you too
you need to at least try them and find
out that’s why they need to be legal
well
i think i may have gotten a little bit
off track there
i was uh
these are supposed to be reasons to
kill yourself well
i hope you found at least one or two in
there that you agree with
i hate life when i’m not on mushrooms
not all the time
but a lot
the despair and the hopelessness that
that
my dna
insists i go through
it’s a
nightmare mushrooms are the only
thing that helps they’re not like other
drugs
other drugs
that are synthetic or produced in a
laboratory
they’ll give you a temporary relief but
then
you’ll spiral into a very unhealthy
pattern
mushrooms are the only drug that i know
of
that’s the opposite
the more you take it the healthier you
become
and if you are suffering from mental
illness like i do
please try it
oh then that begs the question where do
you find them well that’s the hard part
because they’re
you know
illegal and even in places where they’re
legal they seem to be
a little bit illegal
so
so we’re on our own right now
so i’ll try to guide you
through your mushroom experience
the best way
that i know how but i’m not a medical
authority
i’m just a
stupid [ __ ] who doesn’t know anything
and if you follow my advice
it is at your own
risk
i will try my best to make sure
that your mushroom trip is as safe as
possible
all right anyway
we were talking about suicide and
despair
well you got it was in there right
hey
by the way
i’m shroom daddy and this is the
tripping channel
you
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